Oct 23 2025

A time when something I admired scared and challenged me would probably be God. I grew up in a religious household and am expected to have god in my everyday life. When I was young I never thought twice about the existence or goodness in God because I was scared of not being able to make it to Paradise. I also truly believed I felt god in my presence. Jehovah Witnesses believe that when the rapture comes Jehovah will come and get all his faithful followers and take them to paradise, where there's no pain, sorrow, or evil. Even when I was a kid I would always wonder if god created everything and knows everything that has and will happen, why did he continue to allow all the evil things that have transpired. If god knew from the beginning that eve would eat the apple why did he allow his seed (Satan) to condemn people that had nothing to do with EVE'S action. As I grew older I started to see more and more how messed up this world we live in truly is. It seems as if there's no god in the first place. I now view the world in a more logical way, but in a way I believe everything that exists is connected. I view the world as if everything is you. When you hurt your enemy your hurting yourself, when you kill that bug you kill yourself, everything revolves back to itself. I think the human mind is much more capable than we think, part of me still thinks there's some kind of spirituality in the world, but regardless I don't believe in the definition "God". If there is one though I believe he's not as good as people portray him to be.

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